Winning is for Everyone
There is a belief that is so strong inside of me that I cannot shake it. I simply don't want to fight or hurt anyone. Or at least, it is something I do not care to do directly (and really, I don't even want to do it indirectly).Today, I am trying to focus on how I can connect to others in loving light. Sometimes, I become defensive and it really hurts me. I know the pain is mine, but I am ready to just dish it out and hurt the person. To give them a signal of 'do not mess with me'. I do realize this is a protection mode. I don't feel safe. I don't believe I can handle myself in a composed manner. I have taken what the other person is saying personally and I want it be known that they have hurt me and let them know that I put up my "KEEP AWAY" sign on. So, why is it that I need this sign? Well, I don't know how to handle myself around this attack. I am ill equipped to handle these attacks. Maybe because I cannot even see that it is coming before...