balancing feeling crappy

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 feeling crappy

  • fear of saying something then regretting it
  • apologizing for being myself
  • stuck and can't get free
  • waiting for things to change
  • looking for help 
  • take on someone's help to get free
  • i can practice breathing 
  • not feeling happy 
  • balance - not in balance
  • what can i do to get into a balanced state
  • it would be good to redirect my attention to the center
  • what is the center?
  • center is where everything is ok and welcomed
  • even if i am feeling crappy right now, it is a feeling that passes
  • i am not crappy.  i feel crappy
  • so, i am a person who feels crappy sometimes.
  • well, that's better than being crappy.
  • whew.  done with that.


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