SPIRAL UP - U TURN UP

 DOWNWARD SPIRAL

No matter what i do, it is not working as i would like

people are not moving fast enough

i feel anxious and distraught at my situation

all i see is what is not working

i feel stuck in a downward spiral

no respit

a pit in my stomach

awwwerewgh

why am i looking downward

feel like i am falling to the ground

i just feel like it is going so fast, that i am not able to stop my self

feel something just below my ribs

this is me not doing anything when i am going down

i feel frozen

not able to act.

not being in my body

feel something at the back of my left shoulder

i dont care it says

you can't get up. i need you

you are trying to run away and abandon me

you don't care about me

can you love me?

i don't kow how to

i don't fee lit

stop and look at me

i can't 

why not

you have pushed people away from me

i am alone because of you

we are in this together

i don't know how to help you

can you just look at me

i am scared to see your pain

i know. that is what i want you to see

i am hurting and you are ignoring me

i am sorry

can you hold me?

i can do that.